~God's looking out for me~

There is something I have to admit....a couple days ago, I posted a rather lengthy rant (which i subsequently deleted) about how tough it is not to feel accepted by my loved ones. I have very few friends and when they turn against me for being a christian, this wounds me to the very core. My family are against Christianity as well and for years I've had to constantly have to live with the notion that my own family rejects me for who I am. They love me when I keep a lid over my faith, when I pretend to be something that I'm not. Which I don't want to do.

Anyway, day before yesterday, I was miserable and cried and prayed to God. I literally placed my burdens at his feet, begged him for strength to move on in the midst of persecutions and forgot about it. Having prayed and been conforted by him, I was okay again. God took care of me like he always does....but I'd forgotten the magnitude of his love for me. Aparently, just conforting me wasn't enough- he sent someone my way yesterday to make me know that I do have somebody, a non-christian, who accepts me just as I am. And that made me realize how useless it is to want to be accepted by the world. Jesus did say that we're going to be persecuted like he was.

My dearest friend, my soulmate and sister created a website for me, with biblical quotes, sermons from Reverend David Wilkerson, quotes about Nicky Cruz's conversion, and an absolutely magnificient Hillsong song which I heard long, long ago without even knowing the title. When I opened the site and saw how she was able to capture everything that I am, everything that I love in her site, I did two things: I burst into tears, and said a quick prayer to thank God for placing her in my life.

Her website is, according to me, God's way of reminding me that even if the whole world shuns me, He's looking out for me from up above. In fact, the background to my website was this absolutely touching quote from Isaiah:

"See, I will not forget you...I have carved you in the palm of my hand."

I don't think there's anyone out there reading my blog...but just in case there is someone who's being persecuted for being a Christian, hold on. God's looking out for you, it won't be long before He'll show you that the struggle is worth it. And you know what? I usually can't sleep at night cos I've got all these thoughts bouncing around in my head. Yesterday I was up till 5am cos I felt too happy, too estatic, too lucky for the life God's given me. And for the amazing friends he placed in my life.

I felt discouraged, but God very gently reminded me that I was bought at an extremely, extrememly great price and that I'm just too precious to become slaves of men.

Sparkles&Smiles